In the past year, I’ve struggled A LOT with flying, which I have never had a problem with before. The anticipation leading up to the day of my departure to sitting at the airport, everything about it puts a massive pit in my stomach and makes me nervous. In addition to those feelings of anxiousness, I get an overwhelming sense of sadness leaving my family and friends behind. Many tears have been shed.
As I prepare to head back to NYC this week, rather than only focusing on the sad (because let me tell you, I am sad) I want to reflect on all the good. I’m so grateful to have gotten the opportunity to spend the past seven weeks with my family and best friends. Of course, there were moments of frustration because who doesn’t fight with their family every now and then? But waking up every morning in the same house as my mom, brother and dog brought me an immense sense of comfort. I loved watching 90 Day Fiancé on Sundays live with my mom and grandma -vs- live texting about it. I loved sitting on the couch doing nothing with my dad (even though I know he wasn’t the biggest fan sometimes), but I truly did enjoy it and cherish the simple small moments like going on a quiet walk around the neighborhood. I loved hanging out with my brother and binge-watching new series in a day or two eating absolute junk food. I loved being a car ride away from some of my best friends from childhood and high school.
I’ve cherished the moments at home immensely this time around and am grateful for my family, my job for allowing me to work remote and (oddly enough) coronavirus. When this all started, never did I think I’d be grateful for a global pandemic, but it’s been an opportunity to slow down and spend quality time with family and loved ones. I’m channeling all the good memories into positive energy so that I don’t cry like a little baby on the flight ? ?. I’ll keep you posted if it worked!
Home, you treated me well. Thank you to my family and friends for welcoming back with open arms and the warmest and brightest spirits. This isn’t a goodbye, but a see ya later.
